sitting here watching it rain…again…and can’t help but think about how quickly time is flying by me, and all of us these days. we are always in a hurry, always busy and speaking for myself – have way too much going on most of the time. I really do miss the days when I had “free time”. I mean, I have it now, but the difference is, there is always a dozen or so things that I really should be doing. I mean time where you can sit and relax and not have the pressure of having something you have to do, somewhere you have to go or someone you need to see.

this world as we know it makes it that way – hectic and busy – is the norm and I hate it. it isn’t like it is some big surprise…the times we live in are prophetic and we certainly have our hands full. I think that I just wish I had been smarter, made better decisions and didn’t burden myself down, or have so many hurdles.

mostly, I am just tired…and tired of being tired. I want to enjoy every moment I can with my boys…while they are still young. and they are growing up fast, so I don’t want to miss anything. they are the best. yes, all parents say that – but really, they are awesome. truly two of the sweetest boys ever and we are close, which makes me very happy.

this brings me to my calendar – which is a disaster if you could see it!! and I literally have made myself cross days and nights off in it – to be sure that I don’t let my “busy” work – get in the way of my family time. even if we just watch cartoons together – which we do – it’s time together. we are planning more outings together, hanging out with the boys and their friends a lot more and going to the movies – just us – the way they like it.